present, the key for brighter days

“It isn’t what you did in the past that will affect the present. It’s what you do in the present that will redeem the past and thereby change the future”

Ok. those lines are taken by my all time favorite author. I’ve just begin reading his latest books and (as usual) i love it even before i’ve finished reading it. that lines up there really attracts me. I mean, what’s the point of focusing too much on your yesterday? Things can go wrong but life always goes on. Be grateful for everything you have at this moment cos if you focus on what you don’t have, once had, or you want to have, you will never be satisfied or never be completely happy in your life even after you have reached those satisfaction.

I once (like another girl) fell for a guy, problems occurred, got my heart broken,cried between my sleeps, couldn’t stop the thoughts in me, & blaming myself, etc. Then i decided that i need to change. I stopped expecting things too much & i kept focusing on my present, and i swear to myself that i wanted to be a better person that day.

Without my expectations, The universe introduce me to one guy. and what’s funny is this guy has been there in my sight and part of my daily environment for almost 3 years. Everyone notice him… except for me (as always). Funny. I kept focusing on someone whose very far to be reached that i didn’t notice my surroundings & environment. Falling for this guy was out of my expectations either. i remember, on december, 2010, the first time he approached to me and all i had in mind was that “ok girl…he’s a freak. more freakier than another guy” and guess what? here i am with this freak. total huftness i know.

he’s a typical of guy whose orientating his minds too much on the future— dreams for examples. The most important thing, after doing some research, i take conclusions that he doesn’t give a damn about his past. what’s past is past and will always remains the past for him. he knows what he’s doing. He knows what should or what will he do in the presence to grab a better day. And i realized at that moment, this is the kind of guy that i should hang out with more and more, who brings good influence, and a person whose focusing on the present.

and again we can’t all predict our future. I predicted myself to ended up with different guy but turns out i ended up with the one i once least expected.hahaha. and guess what? i’m happy at my present for having him, i’m grateful for my past for the lessons, and i know what to expect + my limit in the future for reaching my own dreams. If all goes well, let it be, but if it won’t then that’s the proof that i haven’t learned enough.

Sunday Nov 11 @ 06:56am